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HEY THERE GUYS, it's me again ;;
And yes I know I've been away for like, I don't know, three summers? ;_; It was an unnanounced hiatus and what's bad is that I've been on an almost three year hiatus without finishing my point commissions first.
Okay first things first, I'm gonna explain ;;
Now this may seem like a lame "excuse" and I'm really sorry for that and I'm sorry if my reason is in any way "invalid". So anyway, my explanation:
Two years ago, before I entered college, I got the results for my entrance exam on this university. I really wanted to take up fine arts on this university but unfortunately, I wasn't qualified. I was really upset but I knew that I could still take my chances and apply for a reconsideration, so I did lol. So there, they told me to give a few of my drawings so they can evaluate it and boom, I still didn't get reconsidered. Okay, this was when I broke down.
My parents told me to just take another program for now and try transferring again to fine arts the next semester. One semester later I went back to the university to ask if I could still transfer, and they told me they've stopped accepting transferrees starting that year. THAT YEAR. THE EXACT FREAKING YEAR WHEN I PLANNED ON TRANSFERRING. Aaand that's how I gave up, both on trying a become a fine arts student and in life. lol kidding, but still.
I felt like the gods did everything in their will to stop me from becoming a fine arts student, and it made me feel like the shittiest person in the world /insert ugly sobbing here/
So yeah, my self esteem was crushed because of my entrance exam results and a loooot of other things. I didn't want to try drawing anymore because I've always thought that I would never improve. I thought, "the university didn't see any potential in me anyway, so why bother". Hahaha, I've been a very depressed little shit two years ago. I didn't draw for TWO YEARS. It felt wrong, but when I tried to draw, it always looked like crap so I'd feel even worse than before.
Okay, two years after that incident, here I am C:
I'm still trying to get back on my feet. I'm drawing again <3 but not as often as before (but it's better than not drawing). I've been pretty active on Tumblr and Twitter (that's where I've been posting my drawings). I couldn't post them here because I've been drawing K-pop fanarts. Yes that's right, two years in hiatus and I come back drawing korean guys ;;; I'm so sorry ;;;
So, I came baacckk C: I know that a lot of you would probably want to punch me (especially my commissioners) AND I'M REALLY, REALLY SORRY. I know that I've been apologizing one too many times and that my "sorry"s are getting pretty tiring as time passes by BUT I REALLY AM SORRY. I can't promise that I'll be able to upload a lot of drawings here to tell you that I'm still alive but I WANT to upload at least one deviation per month just to let you know that I have no intention of leaving AGAIN.
I missed DeviantArt and it's been really lonely not being able to talk to the people I've been talking to here before so I'm reaally gonna come back and actually stay for real now ;W;
PS: I posted a journal prior to this saying that I'm gonna come back here and stuff, but no one commented on it so I assumed that no one read it (and no one cared) so it took me THIS long to come back again ;;;;
I'M GOING TO BE ACTIVE AGAIN ;w; I'M REALLY SORRY FOR LEAVING UNFINISHED BUSINESS BEHIND ;;;
And yes I know I've been away for like, I don't know, three summers? ;_; It was an unnanounced hiatus and what's bad is that I've been on an almost three year hiatus without finishing my point commissions first.
Okay first things first, I'm gonna explain ;;
Now this may seem like a lame "excuse" and I'm really sorry for that and I'm sorry if my reason is in any way "invalid". So anyway, my explanation:
Two years ago, before I entered college, I got the results for my entrance exam on this university. I really wanted to take up fine arts on this university but unfortunately, I wasn't qualified. I was really upset but I knew that I could still take my chances and apply for a reconsideration, so I did lol. So there, they told me to give a few of my drawings so they can evaluate it and boom, I still didn't get reconsidered. Okay, this was when I broke down.
My parents told me to just take another program for now and try transferring again to fine arts the next semester. One semester later I went back to the university to ask if I could still transfer, and they told me they've stopped accepting transferrees starting that year. THAT YEAR. THE EXACT FREAKING YEAR WHEN I PLANNED ON TRANSFERRING. Aaand that's how I gave up, both on trying a become a fine arts student and in life. lol kidding, but still.
I felt like the gods did everything in their will to stop me from becoming a fine arts student, and it made me feel like the shittiest person in the world /insert ugly sobbing here/
So yeah, my self esteem was crushed because of my entrance exam results and a loooot of other things. I didn't want to try drawing anymore because I've always thought that I would never improve. I thought, "the university didn't see any potential in me anyway, so why bother". Hahaha, I've been a very depressed little shit two years ago. I didn't draw for TWO YEARS. It felt wrong, but when I tried to draw, it always looked like crap so I'd feel even worse than before.
Okay, two years after that incident, here I am C:
I'm still trying to get back on my feet. I'm drawing again <3 but not as often as before (but it's better than not drawing). I've been pretty active on Tumblr and Twitter (that's where I've been posting my drawings). I couldn't post them here because I've been drawing K-pop fanarts. Yes that's right, two years in hiatus and I come back drawing korean guys ;;; I'm so sorry ;;;
So, I came baacckk C: I know that a lot of you would probably want to punch me (especially my commissioners) AND I'M REALLY, REALLY SORRY. I know that I've been apologizing one too many times and that my "sorry"s are getting pretty tiring as time passes by BUT I REALLY AM SORRY. I can't promise that I'll be able to upload a lot of drawings here to tell you that I'm still alive but I WANT to upload at least one deviation per month just to let you know that I have no intention of leaving AGAIN.
I missed DeviantArt and it's been really lonely not being able to talk to the people I've been talking to here before so I'm reaally gonna come back and actually stay for real now ;W;
PS: I posted a journal prior to this saying that I'm gonna come back here and stuff, but no one commented on it so I assumed that no one read it (and no one cared) so it took me THIS long to come back again ;;;;
I'M GOING TO BE ACTIVE AGAIN ;w; I'M REALLY SORRY FOR LEAVING UNFINISHED BUSINESS BEHIND ;;;
heeeeyy
so I said I was going to be active here in dA, I am pretty active recently....
on my new account. OTL
I'm sorry i made a new account and abandoned this one because i felt that my previous fanarts here and the fanarts that I'm making right now are super different ((I went from anime to chanbaek)) and since I draw chanbaek a lot now, I just thought I would just make another account for it.
so yeah if I still have business with you you can find me here ~ecodeuraibeu (https://www.deviantart.com/ecodeuraibeu)
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uhmm.. well... commissioners before you kill me, please.. Q - Q
I NEVER ONCE FORGOT ABOUT YOUR COMMISSIONS, I WAKE UP EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. WITH GUILT EATING ME UP
YES, I AM DOING YOUR COMMISSIONS. (LOL, believe it or not, I REALLY AM XD) AND THE REASON I CAN'T POST THEM/ I'M NOT DONE WITH THEM YET.... WILL BE POSTED ON ANOTHER JOURNAL ENTRY COZ IT'S TOO LONG AND ITS SHITTYNESS CANNOT BE CONTAINED IN THIS JOURNAL ENTRY ;__;
STARTING TODAY, I WILL BE WRITING JOURNAL ENTRIES TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I AM STILL ALIVE.
Guess what guuuyss, I'm now in COLLEGE!! ~happytearplz (https://www.deviantart.com/happytearplz) and no, that
WEEEE~!!! I AM ALIVE~!!!
HI GUYS!!! IT'S BEEN A WHILE! :la: So yeah, I haven't been that active here. SORRY FOR THAT.
BUT ANYWAY, I'M FINALLY DOING MY COMMISSIONS AGAIN~ ~finallyplz (https://www.deviantart.com/finallyplz)
Thanks to all that noted me and motivated me~! :iconhappytearplz: I LOVE YOU GUYS! :heart:
It's finally the Christmas break and I finally have free time to draw!!! YAAAAA-Y!!!!
I'll start drawing more tonight! I don't know what's gotten into me, but I had the urge to draw LOL.
Oh yeah.. and one more thing....... MY TRUSTWORTHY 0.05 DRAWING PEN JUST DIED LAST WEEK DUE TO UNNECESSARY USE AND USED UP LIFESPAN :iconsobcryplz:
So SOME commissions may be delayed ;_;
HERE ARE THE
TO ALL MY POINT COMMISSIONERS~~
TO ALL MY VALUED POINT COMMISSIONERS!! PLEASE READ THIS!! THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT!
As we all know, to every artist's life, there is a very inevitable enemy called "ART BLOCK"
As of now, my Art Block is at Level 8 out of 10 :XD: This stage is where I get inspired and motivated to draw and when the paper is right in front of me, I draw and draw, but I get very dissatisfied with my work that I erase and erase it all over again. IT'S AN ENDLESS CYCLE. I DON'T KNOW WHY IT'S HAPPENING TO ME.
So yeah, I wanted you to read it because I have a REALLY BIG FAVOR TO ASK OF YOU ~onegaiplz (https://www.deviantart.com/onegaiplz)
PLEASE SPAM ME NOTES ABOUT YOUR POINT COMMISSIONS!!! :icon
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Even if we didnt know us and we didnt write back than.. Im still very sorry for giving you the feeling no one cares!
I know how it feels, i got huge Problems to, Maybe Different than yours but i want you to know that i have read your posts and ill try my best to stay activ on your posts!
I really like your drawings and i cant unterstand Who Wouldnt want to have them??
Thats rude! i Dream of having a Talent like you and others throw it away!
So dont throw away yours, Keep practising and even if something doesnt look good... Ill be there to tell you it does look good!
So stand back up and Keep on doing things you like, it will help!
Glad to hear from you after you said you hate your live...
We lose precious people everyday, please dont become one of them!
We will see us in future posts..
Ill be watching you...
For real.. After sending this ill go straight away hammering the watch Button.. Right..about...now..
I know how it feels, i got huge Problems to, Maybe Different than yours but i want you to know that i have read your posts and ill try my best to stay activ on your posts!
I really like your drawings and i cant unterstand Who Wouldnt want to have them??
Thats rude! i Dream of having a Talent like you and others throw it away!
So dont throw away yours, Keep practising and even if something doesnt look good... Ill be there to tell you it does look good!
So stand back up and Keep on doing things you like, it will help!
Glad to hear from you after you said you hate your live...
We lose precious people everyday, please dont become one of them!
We will see us in future posts..
Ill be watching you...
For real.. After sending this ill go straight away hammering the watch Button.. Right..about...now..